Well yesterday and yes it was Saturday I guess we should thank technology since it allows for such things to happen I was notified that my grade report was complete and that it was available for viewing.

It showed that I had passed albeit barely my last class I needed for graduation.

It is to be honest a bittersweet time for me. Sweet in the sense that after of an on going to college I was able to bear down and finish all that now awaits is the completion of the graduation approval process from my university and I will be the bearer of a bachelor degree in Information Technology and can look forward to January of 2013 to start work on my Masters Degree in Web and New Media Design.

The bitter part and yes this is me being whiney is the search for a better job. I like where I work all in all it is a great collection of people, but it is a job that has a limited future. So the process of creating a resume, networking(something the introvert in me dreads) among those things associated with the hunt will begin in earnest at the start of the new year.

In the meantime the education process continues for the next twelve months on my own learning HTML and HTML5, CSS, Javascript, Photoshop among other things as I look to transition into new employment and prepare for graduate school.

So as one chapter closes another one begins and we shall see what happens in the Journey into the Center of the Web continues.

Bernard aka “Indy”


Steve Jobs

I could join the litany of voices in the last few hours in the praise of Steve Jobs and he is deserving of such praise. In addition I could also comment on the future of Apple without their leader, but that ground is currently being discussed by voices whose knowledge of such things are deeper than mine.

What I do want to say is to please urge continued support both be it with private and public funding in the arena of medical research in the treatment and cure of cancer. Not just because of the passing of Steve Jobs but for all of those who have lost their fight to this insidious disease famous and the not so famous.

The Class

Currently I am taking a Programming course that covers Visual Basic 2010 a popular language that covers both written code and the use of Graphical interfaces. I am taking it for the third and this is the last class I need for graduation part of the problem for me with this course has been the dredging up of memories of another programing course which was a frustrating act that gad almost completely turned me off the idea of ever trying programming again.

What is odd to me though is how the memory of a long ago course can hinder the efforts that take nearly twenty years later and speaks to the power of the brain and maybe even more so that of negative memories.

September 11

It is odd, but two weeks ago when I last posted on the blog it hadn’t occurred to me that we would be remembering the tenth anniversity of that tragic day when so many lives were lost and our country seemingly changed and the very thing that the experts in terrorism had been warning about that could occur in the United States since the 1970’s had finally on a larger scale than the domestic terror attack that was Oklahoma City some years before.

While I wish there is something poetic or moving I could write there is nothing I can add other to say look around and appreciate the ones that are in your life and the fact that you are alive.

Life may not be everything you would hope it would be at this point and time and this blog is a internet testimony in part to that emotion that I currently feel, but also a testimony to the hope and belief that no matter how old that one can change course and continue to grow as a person.

Today just serves as a reminder that nothing should ever be taken for granted.


Eyes Closed Shut

In my last post I commented how it was easy to miss the
fusion of art and technology when you have your eyes closed.

The question is why do you have your eyes closed? I not only
ask this for myself but to you the reader out there on the web that connects us
all. Are you doing what you want or doing what you need to survive and this is
a question that not only ask of those who are older but those who are younger
maybe going so far as to ask those now entering college as 18 and 19 years old.
In addition this doesn’t have to be about the journey into center of the web
which for me it is but for any field that holds an attraction to you the reader.

So in all this gibberish I am writing I guess I am asking
why you are doing what you are doing right now. Is it for love of the job, is
it something to do till something comes along better especially with the
uncertain economic times or is it fear.

Fear of the changes
that one may have to make to step out of one’s comfort zone and the ripple
effects that it may have not only for you but for your significant other and
dependents. Because whether we want to admit it or not we all get comfortable
in the status quo. I myself have done that much to my determent I could sit
here as I am right now and point how to the majority of jobs I have held that
have contained no joy, no desire to get up in the morning to go to work, no

Why has that been? Why have I kept my eyes closed?

For me the past and even now in the present my story has
been written by fear. Fear of not doing something that would be approved of by
my parents (and no I am not blaming my parents when I turned eighteen I became solely
responsible for me), fear of not making enough money, failing, fear that what I
wanted to do I would never accomplish for a variety of reasons. All things that
lead to paralysis and closing one’s eyes to what the world despite its many
problems has to offer.

Fear in small doses is a healthy emotion, but like most
things that are excessive it can be damaging and life altering. Hence in part
the reason why as an older man I am now beginning the Journey into the Center of
the Web full of fear and excitement, but the fear does have a root and it goes
back to a computer class.

From the beginning…..

Hello there and welcome to my blog.

As you can tell by the title and brief description this blog is about an older mans’ desire to start anew into a field that when I was in my twenties like so many things related to technology didn’t exist. In fact I was probably the last group of high schoolers at Dulaney High School in Timonium, Maryland in 1981 to have to punch commands for the computer via punch cards. A task that for me was almost as big a turn off as having to take high school biology, but the beginnings of what has so far been a sometimes fun, scary, enlightening, sad ride to where I am now.

As I describe in the about section of the blog this is not only about my journey to work my way into a new career but in some ways a change in a path that is life that taps into an inner passion that I knew existed, but was never sure how to approach. The melding of art and technology.

Of course you may be sitting in front of your computer reading this thinking how could someone not see that, but actually that is not hard when you keep your eyes closed.

So I invite you to check back every couple of weeks and I sincerely hope enjoy what  I write and be patient as over time the content will hopefully improve. Also to see the changes to the blog hopefully for the better as I tinker with it as my knowledge expands  as I journey to the center of the web.


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